Social Media and Insecurities
One time, I was scrolling through the LinkedIn Page and saw one person who managed to get a job offer in top consulting, continued the Management Trainee process at a large company, his business entered the accelerator and several other programs at the same time. In the midst of feeling confused, I will fail many times when I have given 100% effort, like feeling a feeling of insecurity that keeps popping up in my head. Like feeling fortune and luck are not on my side. Then, start judging yourself by what has happened.
But, after the anxiety began to subside, positive thoughts began to emerge again. I don’t know what he did to get so many opportunities like that. How much fun time did he miss because of the piled-up work. How was the struggle he experienced during college while managing time for his studies?
Me with my different capacities, and different dreams too. Maybe when I was a student, I wasn’t the type to always show off and confidently tell others about my accomplishments. Or maybe I’m working on silence too much because I don’t want to disappoint other people. Or maybe I’m actually the happiest person because I’ve always had a balance between work, college, and having fun and exploring new things, new friends, and new places.
Now that I think about it, I don’t want to be a person who spends time just working and studying. So far, I’ve always been happy with my photography hobby which produces memories that I can rewatch. So far, I’ve been doing well and making achievements for the company. I have a good relationship with my family, boyfriend, friends, and colleagues.
Sometimes, what makes us unhappy is because we always measure people’s lives and compare them with our own lives. In fact, everyone has their own space. Everyone has their own way of being happy. After that, I started to get to know myself again. What makes me happy?
I went back to my room, looked at my laptop, and wrote again. While writing I try to do a to-do list and plan my future life. Planning something is fun, sometimes you can get excited to make your heartbeat fast. Sometimes you can get dizzy until you have a headache, don’t know which path you should take first. Humans are always required to be perfect in all respects. Make the right decisions quickly. Be kind and successful in the eyes of others (no matter if you are happy or not).
As an adult, I think that a career is one of the things that become a scourge that must be maintained. There are so many unpleasant feelings about looking good to other people. Though, I’m not happy or maybe not fun. But we are required to always be happy and can learn quickly.
I told myself that you only live once. Make achievements that make you happy. Everyone is different, for me I am happy when I can come to a new restaurant, a new cafe, a new place and I can enjoy good food and drinks. I’m happy if I can recommend it to others. That’s what I wrestle with to give positive moments to other people about how happy I am after coming there.
Maybe many people are curious about self-achievement that I rarely share on my social media. However, I want other people to see that they don’t compare themselves to themselves, but are inspired to pursue what they want. I can be what I want to be with my positive thoughts.
